Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Wondering what the world holds dear.
Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Seeing the world in a whole new light.
Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Wondering what’s going on; on the inside.

I hear the sound of people talking,
I hear the sound of people laughing,
I hear the sound of voices singing,
I hear the sound of the world in happiness

Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Seeing the world as if for the first time.
Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Wondering what it would be like.
Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Seeing the world around me.

I hear the sound of people talking.
I hear the sound of people laughing,
I hear the sound of voices singing,
I hear the sound of life around me.

Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Wondering what life would be like out there.
Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Seeing the world shine so bright.
Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Wondering how to join the light.

I hear the sound of people talking,
I hear the sound of people laughing,
I hear the sound of voices singing,
I hear the sound of my crying heart.

Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Seeing friends and family happy.
Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Wondering if I could ever join them.
Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Seeing the beauty of the night.

I hear the sound of people talking,
I wonder just what they are talking about.

I hear the sound of people laughing,
I wonder who they are laughing at.

I hear the sound of voices singing,
I wonder what song that could be.

I hear the sound of my crying heart.
I hear it breaking daily.

Looking at the world through stained glass windows,
Wondering how to join the world.

There really hasn’t been a whole lot going on lately.

The days come and go quickly, thankfully, but at the same time, seem to take their time on ending. Sleep has been something of a distant memory, as I hardly get any sleep now.

The kids have upped their fighting, and some have even started to feel they no longer need to listen to rules, or rules just no longer apply to them.

Derric starts summer school tomorrow. In a way, I am very thankful, thou in truth, I am not looking forward to waking up early again.

I really wish I had someone to chat with some days, someone I can call up and will be willing to talk, or walk around town, or something. But there never is anyone that thinks of me. Oh, don’t get me wrong, I see my “friends” out all the time, they are always just too busy to hang out with me, and I am slowly, depressingly, getting used to it.

I think it will be good to get back on schedule. As much of a schedule I can get for the next two weeks, before Kevin goes on a month of leave. Whenever he is home, my schedule gets thrown way off.

Today we went to Rofu Kinderland. I am totally in love with that store. I can’t wait until payday so I can go shopping there. I went today because I wanted to pick up a pencil for Derric. Its an interesting pencil, called Stabilo’s Move Easyergo Mechanical Pencil (or ’s Move for short). I also got some refill lead, and found a child’s learning claigraphy pen. I picked that up for me. Love it.

I am tired, and can’t wait for bed time…

I had a pretty good weekend. Kevin’s birthday was Sunday, so the kids and I went all out. We got baloons, streamer, Wolverine themed paper plates, made a cake, bought cards and a gift. I fixed dinner, and had a nice little time celebrating him. He enjoyed it. And yes, I have pictures!

Monday was a family day (they passed their inspection) so Kevin got a three day weekend. We spent it as a comfortable, lazy day. Kevin made a deal, kids clean up the kitchen and dinning room, they can play as many games, electronical or not, as they want. Monday night I worked on fine tuning the lesson plans for Tuesday.

Then we had today. I got up around 5:30, packed Kevin his lunch, and sent him on his way. By 6:30, I had the living room cleared, my Wii set up, and was working on the Gold’s Gym cardio. I also did a little of the WiiFit and called it quits around 7:30. I organized my answer book while waiting for a decent time to wake the kids, then got them up.

The morning started out ok. They had breakfast, brushed their teeth, and then time to start the few lessons.

And shit went down hill from there. Yhea I know, they don’t want to do work over the summer… no kid does, shit, I don’t want to either. But Kauchana REALLY needs the help in math and Language Arts, while Xavier needs work on reading and spelling… Since I knew it would cause a fight if Dokota didn’t have to do something, so I had him join in. Derric again, really needs work on fine motor. So I figured an hour a day of working on stuff, should be good, do it in the morning so afternoons are free…

Well, Kauchana pouted that shitty “Life is soo unfair” pout and pretty much refused to do anything without me doing every step for her. Xavier couldn’t do half his work because his glasses were broke, and Derric went along with them of not wanting to work with me… Dokota, the one who DIDN’T need help was the only one actually doing the work!! Until I got to spelling words for him, and then he started to act up…

So I went to fix Xavier’s glasses, the lense just popped out, should be an easy fix, between going step by step in math for Kauchana… Well, Xavier’s glasses were worse then I thought… You couldnt just pop the lense back in because he bent the frames all to hell again.. $300 this year on $50 glasses! I can’t afford him consently breaking them!!!

And the worst part? They were just fine the last day of school!!! He was wearing them while I was talking to his teacher. Somewhere between walking home and him emptying his bookbag, which is when he handed them to me, broke, they got all bent up… So since there was nothing in his bookbag, and they were in their hard shell case, I can only guess, how they got so bent up…

I am just done. Done. Done. Done.